Hi everyone. I know it's been awhile. I'm seriously considering writing a book, but if you want the super condensed cliffnotes version of the last five years of my life, here it is-
Girl meets boy. Girl falls in love with boy. Boy turns out to be a lying, absuive, drug addicted _____ (place your choice of adjective in the blank.) Boy admits to drugs and goes to rehab---everything is supposed to get better right? Boy comes back from rehab and moves into a halfway house for addicts---supposedly this is a good thing according to the rehab counselors. Boy meets a tramp at narcotics anonymous and girl is giving him one last moment to show remorse, still standing by his side and he says "no, I'm not sorry. We're done." Divorce papers and termination of his parental rights are in the works. Please pray for his rights to get terminated so he doesn't mess up my little girls and I can get sealed to them one day. Please pray for me and my little girls to heal. And most of all-know that I have been very alone these last five years and so thankful for your online friendship.
Oh my gosh April, I am sorry! :( I had no idea! I knew Matt had gone to rehab, and we have been keeping you in our prayers, but I didn't know about anything else. You will deffinitely be in our prayers! Please let me know if there is anything else we can do. This made me cry, my heart is so broken for you and your cute little girls!
ReplyDeleteApril, thank you for inviting me to view your blog. I am so sorry for all that you are going through right now; of course you & your girls are in my prayers! I feel sad that you have felt so alone for so long. Love you.
ReplyDeleteMy Word Babe!! Thank you SO much for your invitation. You've got my prayers and then some! If you need ANYTHING...which i know sounds silly since i'm in Tacoma. But if you need anything at all let me know and I will see what I can do. I'm sorry that you are hurting. Know that you are loved!
ReplyDeleteWhat a ______(insert really bad adjective here:)!!!!! My insides are aching right now. This is every girls worst nightmare.. and now I'm crying. I only hope I could be as strong as you are. Thank you for sharing, I've been wondering about you and you are always in my thoughts. You were my first best BEST friend and you'll always have a special place in my heart. And that's why my heart is hurting soooo much right now. I'm so sorry. I wish so much I could be there with you and to help you through. Just know I'm here for you from afar. I will be praying and hoping that your divorce and custody go as you wish. What a beautiful thing it will be when you can be sealed to your babies! Hope you are doing well today, please let me know what I can do to help.
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ReplyDeleteHey Shannon wants you to send her an invite, if you want to.
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I think that's a good place to send it?
We love you April.
ReplyDelete( not sure if this will work but I'll try and link it anyway -- http://www.arlenegriffith.com/ag/Albums/PressingForward/04-DaughterOfAKing.mp3 )
My West Coast soul sister. I had been wondering about you when you vanished from the world wide web. and now I know. I know what it is to like to love someone with an addiction problem, and if effin sucks. plain and simple. you are so beautiful and such a wonderful mother. He was meant to be in your life to give you your girls. And I know there is a beautiful life waiting for you. I am here, even though far away. I am so sorry.
ReplyDeleteAddiction is a disease and I know there is no excuse but you should try and go to a FEW ALANON meetings i can find out where they are held near you. I love you. stay strong and I am praying for you honey.
http://www.wwafg.org/ ignore the lame lame video. i used to go to alateen meetings. they really do help. love you
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ReplyDeleteApril, you made me cry too! I will be praying for you and your girls as well. I cannot imagine what you are going through right now. I am also out of town (Moscow, ID - 2 1/2 hrs. away) but please let me know know if there is anything I can do. We all love you!! And to echo what everyone else has said, you are dang tough girl. And your little girls are so blessed to have you. Miss you!
ReplyDeleteBeautiful April, thank you for including me on your blog. Although this is my first blog to join, I am "blog challenged" so please excuse any mistakes. I tried to join earlier, but it wouldn't go through. Anyway, you are in my thoughts and prayers. I wish I could give you a BIG hug right NOW! AND hold your babies. Hopefully it will be soon, if you do come to the wedding. April, I cannot express the joy I felt when you and Sarah were able to see each other again at Chantels wedding. Not only was she happy, but I was thrilled. Take good care of yourself. I know its easy for me to say, I am not walking in your shoes. You are blessed to have your parents so close. Take care sweetheart. I am so sorry you've had an aching heart for such a long time. I pray it will get better for you. Love, Jami
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